Firm steps towards “Randomness”

It’s an amazing feeling, as I traverse from a world of conventionality and alignment to an entirely new world of “Randomness”, a world of enterprise! Yes, My own “Venture”. Sounds exciting right? Ya it definitely will, to every onlooker. I myself have got several pats on back for such a bold decision. But then there lies a fear deep inside my heart as to what if I mess it up!!! Till now (And for two more months, i.e. the notice period at Cognizant) I was being supported by a back up cushion, a steady support that gave me an assurance, a security and a guaranteed growth story! But two months from now, I’ll be open to big bad world without this support. Sounds menacing right?




This “Tight Rope Walk” feeling is scary enough to hurry you back to the pole from you started. To top it off you need to convince all the stake holders i.e. people getting directly impacted from this decision. Just think of the plight! No wonder why people who once get into jobs are never able to come out of it. They complain, they cry, they adjust, they compromise, they hate what they do, they dream of doing what they want to do, but they never dare to venture out! After all, why be foolish enough to leave such cushy and posh life for heat and dust of startup!



Well I guess I have an answer to this. (As I say this, I am also trying to convince myself with this write up!). I am getting into this not because I am frustrated from the job or for that matter the limitations associated with it. In my near three years of career as a SE, I have really given above average performance, never failed a deliverable, never upset my managers and never remained stuck in an issue for more than a day… I am getting into this because of a recurrent inner call. A call that has sustained within me since ten years! And this call was coupled with a tremendous opportunity to make a difference. That’s it.

I believe at all stages of your life, you will come across a split road. One that leads to easier but less rewarding track and another that’s tougher and “Supposedly” more rewarding. When in job, every time I make or achieve something, I get appreciations. But in reality, the impact created by this achievement is too miniscule when seen in the larger scheme of things. No wonder why, even the best of achievements fade away with time and you really don’t see much of an impact in your life or on society. Now take another scene. Your venture, your enterprise, that is being run by you! Here every decision is close to make or break situation. Every second moment you feel adrenalin rush about the things you do and every little action (It may or may not be an achievement) has a major impact in not only your’s life but the life your company’s associates. Howz that for starters?



Well, if you ask me, I can come up with many more such “Pious” analogies; after all I have lived with this call for ten years now. I put my papers in yesterday and the moment I clicked submit button for resignation a strong sense of fear rushed through my heart! I think that was the first “True Adrenalin Rush” that I ever had and I believe I am gonna have them every moment for the rest of my life! But what overpowered the fear in a blink was the faces of all those who believed in me and my capabilities and always told me that I’ll do something big someday. I don’t know whether I’ll be able to live up to their expectations, but I definitely know that I have started. I am gonna call them soon and give them a surprise by telling them that I have off boarded the train of conventionality and taken altogether a different route!



I am no Steve Jobs, but definitely I would love to conclude with …

“Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish!!!”